Category: self-bondage

Ball Crushing Predicament in Denim (new clip)

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See also: my previous blog entry

In this scene, I am wearing obscenely short denim shorts and I’m tied in an immobilizing, inescapable predicament. I am gagged, my ankles are strapped tightly together, and my wrists are handcuffed behind my back and padlocked to the rope harness that is splitting and crushing my balls.

My only options are deciding which, painful, rope I want to pull on the hardest. I can kick my legs, but that does little to affect my situation. There is nowhere to rest, as my hips are literally suspended between the two lines that are also holding me on the bed. The one leading backwards is tied to my harness that is capturing my cock and balls and also splitting my balls. The line pulling forward is looped around my package such that my balls get crushed when I pull on that one. I cannot help but pull on one or both of the ropes as I lie there, helplessly bound and partially suspended.

Honestly, it was a lot of fun. The predicament was painful, but the struggle was a serious tease.

Link to clip in clip store: Ball Crushing Predicament in Denim

Bed Bound Punishment

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This scene was some serious CBT using genital bondage. There is a rope looped around John’s cock and balls that is secured behind him. There is another loop or rope around his package that continues through a padlock holding his ankles together (in locking leather cuffs), then forward and back to ball-splitting harness, such that John can’t move forward of backward or raise up without pulling on a rope that is torturing his genitals. His wrists are locked in cuffs that are captured in the rope harness that is splitting his balls. Finally, he is gagged with a huge, mouth filling, leather gag that is also locked on. John can barely move and the ropes around his tender bits just get tighter and tighter, as he tries desperately to find a moment of comfort.

This scene was done for the still photos, so the video has only a single angle and noisy audio, because the video camera was positioned next to a light with a cooling fan. I’m including a short edit from the video because it gives you a sense of John’s predicament.

Cruel Crotch Torture

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I set up this scene on December 28 for some still images, but I set up 2 video cameras in addition to the still camera just in case I wanted to have different angles, and maybe a video clip. This wasn’t the first time I did this bondage. I had been experimenting with different predicaments on my bed a couple days before and I had thought this might make a good image. Not all bondage scenes make for good photos. I thought this one might, although I didn’t really have a good way to show how my wrists were cuffed and locked to the center line on my hip harness. That one detail is what made escape impossible. My harness was finished (tied) in front and my wrists were secured in back, such that I could not reach around. All of the other knots were way too far way to reach and my the locking buckle on my ankle strap was padlocked. Although it wasn’t necessary, my gag was also locked on.

It was not just impossible to escape this crazy crotch bondage torture; the opposing ropes would not allow me to rest my hips on the bed, so there was no place to rest or to prevent from tugging on my genitals, either from the front or the back. The video (free web-short) below gives you an idea of how torturous was this predicament. There is, at this time, no for sale clip from this scene. I was stuck there for most of 20 minutes, but it seemed longer. The struggle was real, and it really turned me on.

New Clip: CBT Punishment

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John Marsh really sucks at remembering birthdays. His partner finally got fed up with his forgetfulness and decided to teach him a lesson he would not forget. You can find more details in our clip store: CBT Bondage Punishment

In this predicament, John can barely move. His genitals are literally chained to the pole and his wrists and ankles are both bound so he can only pull himself away from the pole. He is also gagged so no one can hear his protests; it’s a little late for apologies and special pleading. He really doesn’t stand a chance of escaping, or finding any comfort. Every move he makes just reminds him of the ball splitting crotch rope that is tied tightly over his genitals and that infernal chain.

Steel on Flesh

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I did this scene for a still photo, but I recorded 4k video while I was doing still pictures. Since I could barely move, and I only had one video camera recording, it’s not a very interesting clip. This free short video shows how little I could move and my gagged cries reveal something about how that steel cuff felt on my tender flesh.

This is the kind of scene I love to do. It may not be interesting to watch, but I can barely breathe without being reminded of my predicament. As you can see in this video, there is no way to take the tension off my balls, and struggling results in a painful, teasing tug. The gag is very effective at muffling my cries. Escape is impossible and I can barely move. Nirvana. 🙂

New Clip: Captive Toy

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John Marsh is tethered to the wall wearing a super tight Speedo brief, but the length of his tether can be shortened or lengthened to dramatically alter his range of motion and comfort level. He moans loudly through his gag when his tether pulls him very close to the wall and clamps down on his balls. He moans with frustration when he has more slack but can do nothing to free himself or loosen the tight harness that is crushing and splitting his sensitive man bits. His wrists are secured in locking, leather cuffs that are padlocked to a chain that is wrapped around the base of his cock and balls. Even if he had something to reach for, he cannot reach out with his arms pulled tight against his back. Tugging on that chain only adds to his misery.

Click to purchase -> Captive Toy, 2023-10-20

A huge thank you to my patrons! I have made a few sales, recently, and that is very exciting. Even if you’ve only purchased a single clip, you matter more than you think. My sales from this studio are pretty dismal. So Thank You!

New Clip: Sweating in Chains

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I’m so far behind on editing, I decided to combine scenes with a similar theme. In the month of August, I recorded several videos in a hot dungeon where I was brutally chained, handcuffed, gagged, etc. I sweated and I drooled, and it was fabulous. So, I assembled this clip from five different, sweaty events.

Link to my clip store: Sweating in Chains, August 2023

An Experiment in Ball Crushing Bondage

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crotch harness closeup

I had an idea I wanted to try. The concept was simple; pull my legs around a pole with a linear actuator (think slow moving winch) such that my balls were pressed hard against the pole. I expanded on the idea by tying my genitals to the pole and using the same linear actuator to pull the genital ropes tight against the pole, also.

Although it took me a while to work out exactly how I wanted to harness my genitals to get the right effect, the problem I could not solve was how to shoot the scene in a way that would clearly illustrate what was happening and make it interesting to watch. After all, I wasn’t going to be dancing around, and the pole was going to obstruct the camera’s view of my genitals. Since the entire point of the scene was the ball crushing pole, it kind of sucked that I couldn’t get a good shot of how that worked.

I did shoot some video from a few different angles, and I’m including a short edit here. Although I’m not sure about the success of the video, I did find the scene to be really intense. The crotch harness got pulled really tight as I struggled and complained loudly. The net effect was that my balls were crushed really tight and I nearly had to cut the harness off, because it was so tight I had a serious struggle getting it loose. Keep in mind, that I could not get away from the pole until I got that harness off.

Emotional Health & Self Bondage

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John Marsh was in need of a mental health day, so he put himself in a painful, progressively tightening self bondage, at the mercy of a timer that would hold him for 35 minutes. That may not sound like a long time, but John knew that the ropes around his genitals were going to be very tight and this predicament was going to get painful after just 10 minutes.

John’s wrists were locked in leather cuffs and the cuffs were roped to the wall, opposite the rope wrapped multiple times around his genitals and rigged so that a weight could take up any slack, but John couldn’t pull that slack back. He was gagged and his ankles were cuffed and locked around a steel post. In this position, John could barely move, and if he tried to get some slack by pulling against his wrists and thrusting up his hips, that slack would be taken away and his situation would be that much tighter.

Of course, John did this as a way of centering himself, mentally. Although it was painful for 20-25 minutes and he had no choice but to tolerate the pain or struggle to find a less painful position; even if just for a few moments, until and after his release, his mind was focused on his body, and nothing else. In a way, his physical pain brought his body in sync with his emotional state.

It’s impossible to take a photograph of emotional pain, so the images you see here are a physical proxy for how John was feeling that day, on the inside. People who have never found emotional relief through pain won’t understand, but these things that John does are not as risky as much as they are a matter of survival.

(Note: John Marsh an alias I use for myself. He is a fictional character I use to illustrate my crazy bondage and mud adventures. John’s experience is mine; in case that wasn’t obvious.)